i turned in my final paper at 2 or 3 am saturday morning and thus starts official winter break! 1 month!- that i am going to use to work, rest, read, and move about with my cantonese pod casts playing in my ears…gotta get fluent. or conversational atleast! it irks me that i can’t fluidly conversate with some of my own relatives.
pros and cons of growing up an ABC, [123 baby you and me girl…]
pro- i have a fun time playing with english words, stringing together nonsense words in patterns that express some part of my thinking thoughts.
con- i feel a part of me missing since i am chinese but what comes out of my mouth is english. growing up with mentality of being a subordinate race
anyhow its about time i reclaimed all of my identity, know and love all of me. i got to get a move on. because i also want to speak spanish as well so i can travel and work in more places of the world. One of the dentists i help out know Farsi, Spanish, French, and English!! gett it.
its bloody cold and wet outside making me not want to run the muddy fire trail. but thats a luxury comment containing words like “run” which implies having enough food to expend this extra energy, as well as having an option and having an “inside” to go to. thank u for a roof above me and a blanket, friends, and the defrost. i believe i am amidst a transformation, but i can’t zoom out to make sense of it all yet.
im driving to socal tomorr…today…gotta zz up. peace
