[Yes you are right,] words of affirmation are a strong second runner up [for the love languages]. It’s time and words. These things matter to me in life. I write with so much heart because that is where it is coming from. I have been wounded exactly there, and this is what is coming out.
I really don’t think you understand how I feel. I cannot fall asleep and if I do, I wake up a couple hours later.
What you did to me— cutting off everything…the culmination of hanging out almost everyday for the past 3 months- cutting all that off in 20 minutes with no explanation—it’s just really disrespectful.
It is like this:
It is like me going to Rochester for an interview.
Before the interview, what do I do?
I spend hours practicing how to answer interview questions on my own and then with friends. I reach out to other people and ask them what their experiences are in during a nursing interview. I buy books on how to get better at interviewing. I will go out to buy a fake leather portfolio to put copies of my résumé in. I will practice a second round of interviews with my friends before I leave. I spend $200 on a plane ticket. I spend a morning trying to register for an Air B&B account, made a video of myself, and send that in to get approved. I research where to stay in Rochester based on how far it is from the Hospital.
On the day of my flight, I will pack a bag, take the 2 down to the E and then airtrain to arrive at JFK an hour before my flight, go on instagram while I wait, run through more interview questions in my head, board the plane and take off.
I will arrive in Rochester. Hopefully it’s not raining, and I can hail a cab to the Air B&B spot.
I will spend the night probably a little nervous.
All this preparation, all this time, effort, money, and expectation goes into a less than 2 hour interview with a hospital in Rochester.
So the next morning, I wake up, put on my make up, do my hair, put on my suit jacket, walk to the hospital with my fake leather folder in arm. I meet the nurse recruiter, she shakes my hand and leads me to a chair across from her desk. She smiles at me about to start the interview, and says, “Hi Veronica. It’s really nice to meet you. Thank you for coming today. You are a great applicant, a really great applicant, unfortunately we filled all the positions two weeks ago. You deserve a better hospital to work at anyways. But I will always remember you when I think of fake leather rèsumè folders!” and she hands me a thank you card for coming to meet her.
Can you understand that this is how I feel??